Default Position

This has been an interesting month for me to say the least, but a bit scary as well. I joined Weight Watchers and that became my focus for the first 3 or 4 weeks. But shortly things began to change in me. I was and am seeing changes that, to be honest, I have never seen or felt before. Food has slowly moved from my focus without me really realizing it. I decided before I joined that I had to make this change and it had to be something that was going to change for the rest of my life. I know that sounds kind of cliché but it is true. I have said it a hundred times but this time I meant it. I have said in previous entries that I began to pray at night and in the morning for the strength to make it through that day. I am still doing that. But even through it all and feeling different I was afraid to say out loud how I really felt. I was afraid that if I put words to it that it would go away. That I would somehow jinx it by saying out loud that for the first time in my life chocolate did not have a magnetic sway over me or that cookies did not call to me from the cookie isle. I feared my mere words would undo what I was grasping for and craving to maintain on the inside. This morning I stepped on the scale and it said that I have lost 15.6 pounds. No idea what the WW scale will say and don't really care. And as I was stepping into the shower I realized that it was time that I claimed this journey. This is my journey. God is delivering me from this addiction and this is mine! I need to realize that I can rejoice in what is being given to me and not be afraid of saying it out loud for fear of it being taken away. For whatever reason, right now, right here it is my time to let go of the food. To accept that life is more important. Friends are more important. Health is more important. God is showing me that and gave me the peace to claim that for myself this morning. For years I have heard people use that term "claim it" and never understood what they meant by that, but this morning I did. I am not pumping my chest out as if I have done anything spectaculor on my own or that I am more deserving that anyone else. But for whatever reason, it is my time and He is allowing me this time to learn this lesson right now. I was listening to a preacher from the church I attended Sunday talk about their bible reading. They are reading teh bible in a year. In my effort to thank God for what He is giving me I thought I would listen and make the effort to read with them. I went back and wrote something he said word for word because it was so powerful and I felt it spoke directly to me and is the title of this entry. My food has been my default position but it will not be any longer, and for that I thank God. I don't want my fear of change or my unwillingness to claim what He wants for me to ever limit me again. The following is what he said: When you are under press what is your default position? Where do you want to go back to? If it is anything other than a greater trust in God it limits your future. Ask the Holy Spiritto help you rewrite the default position of your life. It will change the potential of your life.