Being thankful

Yep, it's me again Margaret.  I was in a bit of a snit yesterday when I posted and I could not see past my own problems to see the blessings in front of me.  Since then, yes, a whole 12 hours God has shown me that I have way more to be thankful for than I have to complain about.

Let me start by saying I am a food addict.  Yes, there is such a thing and it is as real as an alcoholic or a drug addict.  For me it is more difficult an addiction to kick than either of those because you have to have food to survive.  Please don't hate me or write me dirty response for that statement, it is just how I feel.  You don't have to have alcohol, cigarettes or drugs to live.  Try giving up food and walking away from it completely.  Bet you can't do it and survive for very long.  A food addict has to learn how to eat healthy food in a healthy quantity while dealing with the addiction that got them fat in the first place.  Doesn't sound easy because it isn't.  This is part of why I feel I have never been able to get weight off and keep it off in my 41 years.  This is exactly where God hit me last night after my pity party for one.

After I blogged last night I went to bed.  I was saying my prayers thanking God for getting me through yesterday and to please give me the strength to get through today.  When He revealed something to me that really had not fully hit me since I started this journey 25 weeks ago.  He has delivered me from this addiction.  Don't get me wrong.  I still crave food and I still want things I should not have from time to time.  And I prove that the human in me can rear her ugly head and overpower God's strength in me by shoving him to the side and do what I want to do even when I know I am wrong.  But it dawned on me while laying in bed praying that the pull food has had on me every day has not been in me since I gave this journey over to God 25 weeks ago.  How did I miss that?  How did I miss this shift in my desire for food?  There are times that I truly look at food as fuel and not as something that I covet.  Who is that person and how did she get inside me?  I have told my WW buddy over and over that I really have not had any cravings this time and I keep attributing it to the fact that we can have all the fruit we want now.  It hit me like a lightening bolt last night.  NO!  It isn't the fruit - it is God.  It is God working in me changing who I am.  Wow, all I could say was thank you.

There are many other things I realized and I was overly thankful for the things that were revealed to me last night that I have been taking for granted, but I will leave this where it is and just say that God is good and will work wonders if you let Him and trust the journey He has in store for you.